a past to remember

Salam to All....

Today I went to KGV's award giving ceremony... its.... nostalgic.. There I was... standing in the school's green... it was like yesterday....hmm... no its long enough for me no that my daughter went to the same school as her tok daddy and wan mummy then her ibu imah, mama inah, mama idah and maksu next came her father and her uncles and auntie...then her elder cousins. wow that three generations passed by. but the most important thing is taht she went up the stage to received her prize on getting 100% in pendidikan Islam...what ever it is congrates next year win sumore

its been such a long time

Salam to all....

Today it was a new semester for the college... a new begining. it was a wonderful week for me as it gave me room to breathe and now its time to work again. A lot has happened from the last post but just a quick review.. Naufal now can walk and been doin fine, zaini bought a car, spain won the world cup, we went to sabah in august, got a very hectic puasa and raye then speaking ..finals well its a hectic life.no matter what things are getting better....and going into a proper shape for every one.
As for me this part of semester that i like most..why ...well lets just say we got to play with issues and such with the kids and then they will expand thier mind by doing some research and present to the class. well thats all for now see ya

to help or not to help

Salam Sejahtera kepada kamu pembaca,

let start with a prayer for the fallen comrade aboard mavi maramara who were killed by the israeli comandos... well the whole world got mad.. then we kutuk them well as far as memories served that the boldest thing we all do... what happen then well the same thing happened again and again and again.. so.. theres nothing we can do about it ... well thats because we as muslims are not united enough to fight them.. we had successfully destroying each other than helping each other..but that is not the main point here. as i was listening the radio the aother day the dj had used or emphasize word like being treated harshly,badly or we were shock to hear how they kick and shot the activist.... yes as malaysian we must understang that that place is a warzone there is no humanity over there... sodif you were chosen to go please equipped yoursekves

a give from god not to be abondoned

Salam Sejahtera to all you readers....

I am often touched when seeing or hearing about the babies that were abandoned to death by their parents on tv or the radio. its sickening...it bad .... its terrible... sometimes tears were shed to watch the lifeless young ones being shown .. what? why? ... in one way it is murder you left your blood to death those babies cannot survived on their own!!!!! even tigers left their cubs when they think thier cubs are grown big enough to fend themselves but what about the babies they could even hold their milk bottle what are you ?... guys come on its like the quraish people before Prophet Muhammad came they buried their girls but now they just left them whether the baby's a boy or girl they just don't care.... and it is a trend in Malaysia... then comes the next question who is to be blamed? the answer is well its everybody... we have to change... we have to take care... how not just by taking care of the babies if they were found but taking care by advising our family.. neighbors.. friends and people around us...and its hard its like keeping tab on other people's affair but if we don't do that then this thing will not stop. and for those who were being advised by others or any of your sons and daughters that being skolah by others see don't just jump into their defend listen to what other people's opinions first then make important actions to improve the situation.. its easier said than done especially if our children are on the line but act before its too late... I'm not better that everybody but i'm sure hope i will do the right thing when the shit hits the fan... but seriously we need to change.. i can still remember when i was a teen.. i will have the creeps whenever i went to town coz over here back then everybody knew everybody and news travel ultra fast.. no need sms people will give clear and vivd imagination like mms taken with 12 mp camera.. and you will not have the chance to counter the report coz your dad won't give a damn what your reasons were... come to think of that it saved me a lot back then ... so start to change....

reflection

salam sejahtera for all the readers

its been a while since I've written anything on this here page...anyway things are okay this time around actually not that ok... i just got back from the clinic as i am having diarhea aka cir and bir it was bad last night and i got a day off.. so i'm here at my moms house with kak ros aka jeeha and her aunty. the orientation program had been a success as nearly nil comment from the other ajks and i had finally finished the manual guide for facillitators kmns to be used as soon as this pdt mppb thanks to zaini, ain, duta soya, luqman, eekkyynne and all the facis lantai yg chantek for helping me in doing the manual guide.. as new young faces came i had remembered those faces that came before how they had grew up and some had already started a family too aka deris and afiq soon to be then saufi then aina kot whatever it is i would like to thank you and congratulate you all for the effort you had given before and its fun to get to meet you guys if allah permits.. as theres a hectic life we had to endure too.. for those who are going to be in university hepi lantai yg chantek in respective universities.. those who going to be in second and third year hang in there. those who are graduating congrates and remember life is not a text book you have to get through it and those who are finding jobs..hmmm well start learning back as your life is just begun.. if you face the world with a full glass then you'll get nothing .always come with a half full glass maybe you'll catch somehthing.. i'm just saying what my senior said when i step on kmns ground for the first day... and still learning... if you thing you smarter than others then think again you may have the highest cgpa, you may have gone to a lot of places but if your attitude sucks then you'll suck forver man... so think... endeth lesson.

senarai nama facilitator pdt 201011

salam ni dia senarai nama fasi pdt sila baca dan respon for confirmation in my facebook as soon as possible so bagi mereka yang terpilih sila hadirkan diri di kmns pada 11 mei hari jumaat selepas jam 2 ptg dan utk mppb pdt nie tak ade slot untuk alumni sume akan dikendali kan oleh pensyarah kmns so kalau nak dtg sila hubungi saya dahulu kang sesia kene sound kat ob kay.

saje je

just something i like to see

naufal ..little man...ensem boy

melts my heart everytime i come home and see him waiting at the door......

a band that inspired me some time ago........

the importance of brotherhood

Salam to you all readers,

Just finished watching band of brothers and there are a lot of things that can be learned. one of them is brotherhood. Mostly we talked that to our friends but for me it is for my own. Respect and acceptance is one of the essence that we must have. Yes you must accept your own brother and sister no matter what he had become or he had done and vice versa. Then you should respect him or her too.. respect goes both ways not just the younger to the older but vice versa too yet sometimes it can be biased. next came experience... sometimes bad things happen to the elder brother that does not mean he's bad but he made a wrong decision at that time... fine he was wrong but that made him more experienced than the younger.and everybody makes mistakes ,you too included..... you see the more mistake happened the more experience you'd have and through it then you'll learned about life... and you could talk about it because you've gone through it.. then the rest could listen and well try not to make the same bad decision like the elder did before. there again acceptance counts. if you could accept that then you could accept others too. then you will see that we are not god or angel or perfectly perfect humans.. and we are disorganize too...so if you think you are perfect then you should be god too right? are you a god? next stop would be our perception of things around. life is not a compartmentalize organ.. its predictably unpredictable.. meaning its not that a systematic way of life if your mother lives by it so do you too.. no.. how you live your life is up to you.. meaning its not a wrong thing to get out and life your life.. like I always do... why? by living your life you'll meet others and there again you'll see how others live their lives and may be you could take something positive from others
to incorporate in your life and that may bring good things too... there i found out that in my family i guess i can accept things because i'm used to do that.. i can live by my own because i've used to do that too.. i can embraced pain and suffering because i used to live in those too.. i wonder dear brother and sister what if I am just like you now... living like how you live now.. maybe ayah and ibu could not be giving like what you have or get today.. because of that i accept that at that time ayah and ibu has to give a lot to my younger brother and sister. jealous not at all... angry yess because of your ignorant and selfishness but most of all rage as i see you two are those people that do not know how to appreciate what has been given to you and frankly speaking with your foolish act as if the world is yours and you are those assholes who think you know about life but in reality just another person who depend on their mom and dad to live.. shame on you.....
i may not be the best nor the smartest but that i've been there and done that and i was there when the whole world collapse and when the shit hits the fan..... i just got me myself and i to depend on... the question is can you be on your own.. after mom and dad? i can... how bout you?

something for a special person-my boy

my boy... Naufal

it was a fine morning when the call came,

hurriedly asking me to be there,

where somebody in pain so untame,

vision of it gave me nightmare,

It was lots of blood lost,

lots of fearful hopes

but to save you at all cost,

as life hanging by the ropes

there you go out from mummy's tummy,

small little package like darling buds of May,

red mass i saw coming to me

then you are the most beautiful thing that day,

days gone by you're getting bigger,

embraed with such fine fair skin too,

though a little smaler then your elders

but blessed with pointed nose and strong bones too,

such fine features you've possessed,

your bright eyes and cheerful laughter,

with two deep dimple adding up the rest,

those will make girls heart melt faster,

but now again came the test,

making our ordeal not yet done,

bad germs and cold viruses never rest,

leaving you lying helplessly undone,

so Naufal, Naufal my boy, my heart, get well soon,

so we can see you smile and laugh to the moon,

and to watch your beautiful face brightens the day,

cause daddy misses you and and loves you all the way....

writen on March 5th 2010